most me

When I have a lot to do, when I have no time to lose
anything I choose that doesn't accomplish my list of things to do
is a distraction
when I'm mentally detached from what hold the most traction
is when I'm most distracted, when my mind is attacked
with all the things that don't matter
trumping with all the things I could
potentially squander if I don't get started right away
when I'm most distracted my thoughts start to wander
and when my mind starts to walk away
my focus becomes far-sighted and I can't think about today
I thrive on things I'd rather do, on places I'd rather see, on the person I'd rather be
when I'm distracted I see things I never see
perception grows exponentially
for me this is an escape from reality
however momentary, short, or temporary
because sometimes the world is an intimidating place to be
but this distraction is a comfort to me
as long as this distraction allows me to transcend
the normalcy of to-dos hanging over me
because honestly
it's when I'm tied-down that I'm most free
when I'm blind I can better see
when I'm scared I can act most courageously
when I'm drowning I can better learn to breathe
when I'm most distracted I'm most me
gravitating towards things that yearn to be
my fingers begin dance and my soul breathes with ease
when I find myself writing scribbles like these
so when time is most pressing, when real life is too upsetting
I'll gladly distract myself, placing sanity on the shelf
for a few seconds of clarity, if that's what it takes